My mind is going insane right now. I want to laugh, I want to scream, I want to cry. I don't know why I'm feeling this way but it's horrible. I want to curl up and sleep but I also want to run around with my arms in the air, screaming about rabies and the lockness monster.

The insanity is evident...

But on lighter news... I'm going to show some leg tomorrow. It will be amazing. But then the leg will be covered with knee high socks. I'll probably get new pictures as well...

For some reason, I'm reminded of when Daylon and I argued about levels of society and how no matter what, there would always be a form of social ranking... I pwned him in it. It was amazing... Silly boy, you can't have a dictatorship while having no social separation... :]

I want to go back to six flags and run around with Danika. ((Miss you gurlie))

And I want to move back to Canyon Lake... Everything here is so depressing...The youth has gone to hell in this world... No one ever wants to work for something, they all want it to come to them and get angry when it doesn't happen. I'm not gonna lie, I'm like that at times as well, but not like these people... Oh God no... Everyone is so caught up in drugs and sex that they end up ruining their lives by getting addicted to heroin or having a child at the age of 14... I've never seen so many people on the road to failure before. It's so discouraging.

I mean, if these people can't do it, then why can I? I'd live to believe I'm better, that I have the inspiration to be great but now I'm just not sure. This move has opened my eyes to the world around me. Sure, I still act like the innocent little girl they once knew but I've changed. I mean... It's so hard for me to write now! Imagine, Ceira, me having trouble writing? I just... Blah. Never WANT to anymore.

And weirdly, I feel like I need to get out of this place.

It's eating me alive.